today.

i woke up early today. :)

went to Dutaria via Duke. ngeh ngeh. 1st time driving thru Duke. haha.

went to aini's place. studied. went to plaza. back home at 5.30.

Jarno Trulli of Italy, Malaysia’s Fairuz Fauzy and Heikki Kovalainen of Finland. :)



bangga x ade malaysian sorang? walaupun hanya 3rd driver, saye bangga laa jugak. and in my opinion, having our own malaysian team is sucha a waste of mullahhh. $$$$$ kalau kayea gile xpe laa jugak. why invest money on the team when we already have a circuit? team=cars=drivers= $$$$$ nak cari kat mane? money dont grow out from trees.duhhhhhh. and i still think that the 'having a malaysian team will promote our tourism' excuse, bla2, bla, bullshitt, bla2 is irrelevant. we already have a circuit. even without a team, we can still promote the tourism and enhance the countrys economy. common sense duhh.

anyway; i am looking forward for the next season to come. 2010 is gonna be one awesome seasonnnn!!!!! cant wait for it :D

p/s; LETSS SHOW SOME LOVEEE. SUPPORT LOTUS. 1 MALAYSIA!!! wth. lol

#random fact 27# i love the colour black and red. (and sometimes, baby blue or green can do.) :)

Guts of a tiny germ. you have it ehh?

woke up late.

couzins are here :)

will be going to Dutaria this evening :) (:

#random fact 27#; i love Luna colour pencils. :)

(haha. pending post still ade.)

Theres more to life; thn you.

and today; i finally gt out of the house. after few days of grieving; wait. grieving sounds so wrong and depressed. lol. after few days of staying indoors; i went out with k.awin, my brother and his other friend.

(btw; i have a pending post.haish. pemalas)

it was 11.30pm when my brother asked me wthr i wanted to join him for lunch with his friends but he didnt tell me the exact time. i assumed that it wld be around 2.00/3.00pm. and then around 12.30; he's voice disrupted my peacefully calm study environment. (nooooooooooo. thats a lie. i havent even started studying yet. was just practically staring at the pages.HAHA.)

(12.30pm)
"angah cepat lah. i'm going now.i'll wait for u in the car. u only have 2 minutes."

i was like, "whattt? 2 minutes? gile ke ape?"

anddddd as expected; it took me more thn 10minutes (or almost) to bersiap. and guess what happened when i was already standing beautifully (not) at the front door?.
he drove the car away. FOR REAL. i was like, WTHHHHHHHHHHHH?

when i called him, he was like "sape suruh lambat. u dont have to go lahh. i'm not gonna turn back the car for ur sake. padan muke"

grrrrrr.@#$%^&*grrrrrrrrrrr.()_(%$#$%^&grrrrrrr.*()_+)(*&^%$%^&*()_

can u imagine how i felt? dahlah ajak orang. pastu tinggal pulak. -_- ANNOYING WEYHHH.

so, assuming that he wont come back and fetch me, i changed my clothes and konon nak calm down lahh, nak start study.

AND THEN; the house phone rang. "hah.cepat laa. i'm waiting for u outside. 1 minute."

GRRRRRRRRRRRR.GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
DAH SALIN BAJU BALIK WEYH. haishhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

ade hati pergi isi minyak.

SUCH A BULLY LAAAAA THAT FELLA!!! -_-

but yeah, i end up going and obvsly i didnt argue much la. after all, he's my kind (not) elder brother. i rest my case. ;p

had lunch @ burger king and watched ZOMBIE LAND. seriously; the movie is worth every penny!!! its superr hillarious :) u'll loveeee it.

odw back, we singgah @ k.awin's place. she played the piano for me. heeeeeeeee :) (:
and she promised to play this the next time i crash her place :D



beautiful kann? thnk you k.awin :D

all in all, thnk you k.awin, abang and his superrr funnayhhh friend. :D its sucha great great day for me.

p/s; to abang; thnk you for the awesome day (all expense paid.HAHA) ;p

#random fact 26;# I prefer the red packaging Skittles thn the green one. :)

My mistakes, were made for you.

Rabu. That night, i was sorting some books and papers and aza was using my laptop. and then, i had this instinct. the usual feeling that i have when its you. and yes, as expected, you were there. your name on the screen. i buzzed you after much persuasion from aza and ayue. its been awhile, yes i know, yes you know, yes we know.

and with just one sentence referring to the past; in a fraction of second, my sky collapses. and the street, the bridge and the wall that i built, vanished into thin air. fraught with fervor of everything. a surge of guilt and stupidity envelops me. flinging me back into the past with a thousand other pictures.

i was indeed traveling back to the past.

i was there again. the first time that i saw you, the indescribable feeling.

the ym conversations that we had. the lame jokes.

the way you made me feel.

"i'm sorry. i was stupid enough to not know" i heard myself saying it. but those weren't the words that i typed down. the whole conversation was awkward and all-made-up. i try to keep things casual. after all, youre no longer mine. wait. you were never mine. who am i kidding?

that night, i cried like shitte. i cried, not because i was weak. i cried because i was pissed. why do you have to bring up that matter? i thought its history already. i thought we're finished long before we started. i cried, because there was nothing else that i could do. that night, i felt so small. i felt so fragile. i was no longer my own version of steel. besi. i was no longer a besi berani. magnet. *besi berani; indicating a very strong steel ;p *

i built myself, i pulled myself together just to forget but with just one sentence, my whole world turned upside down. how powerful words are. i mean, how powerful your words are to me.

i wish to tell you the truth, truthfully; the truth. but i didnt wanna play with fire. i dare not. the what if(s) came back and haunt me. then, the guessing game.

shitte. i'm tired. i am so tired. i am indeed tired.

i went to class looking like a zombie the next day. that even when someone asked me "key are you okay?" i just shrugged and burst into tears.

i cant express everything here. i dont know how.

let me ask you something. do you believe in love? do you believe in the four letter word? how far can the four letter word get you? far enough to crash you down? i will never understand how people easily express their feelings to anyone randomly. like saying the 3 words sesuka hati je. emotionless.

and how and why people change their spouses easily. like for a few months or weeks you're with this girl/boy and then, when you're bored, you dump him or you guys dump each other (if there is such thing.lol). and then you guys get to have new boyfriends and girlfriends. hah. that easy. or like when you talk about you're exes. some may have 4, some may have 6, some may have up to more thn 10. how amazing (not) is that? what i'm tryna say here is, i dont get it. why cant you guys just love one person only. just love him/her and stay true to that person.

do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend just for the sake of having one? are you that desperate? do you really love him/her? if you dont, why bother to even be in a relationship? right. to make you not look like an unwanted loser in the eyes of others. is it?

i thought love is a beautiful thing,no? when you love someone, it means you really love him/her in every kind of way. how can you love someone and then not love him/her? tell me the formula to fall out of love easily. i'd like to know.

take myself for example;

i hardly fall for anyone, but if i fall, i fall hardly.

heres a piece of advice; if you love someone, let the person know. tell him/her about your feelings. or else, the moment will pass you by, right before you eyes and by then, even suicide wont undo the pain. regrets will flow like the rivers and they dont wash away easily.

people change. feelings change. some things are just beyond your control power.
unreachable by you. perhaps one day, my feelings would change. idk. who am i to judge? who am i to tell? the limitations. thats whats holding us back.

right now, i wish this feelings would just go away. i want this to be over, to be through but in the end, it will always come back to me, to you.

do you know that there are times when i feel like i really miss you?
i read somewhere in a book, that when you miss someone, it means that you're heart is empty. empty as in, you're far from Allah. forgive me dear God for i am just a slave. at times, i tend to forget.

how about you? what do you do when you feel empty? do you pray and recite the beautiful words of zikrullah? you should try. it'll make you cry when you think about how jahil you are. no matter how forgetful you are towards Allah, He's always around; waiting to answer your prayers. my prayers. our prayers.

so what next? lets keep praying :) i'll be fine. its just a matter of time. lets not think about what should've and could've been. maybe, its destined to be like this. maybe, all i have to do is accept it. and surely, its hard but things will get better. and its just a matter of time, indeed its just a matter of time.

p/s; i promise that one day; i'll write an honest post about what happened. from the beginning till the very end. you just gotta wait for it. ;p

#random fact 25#; i loveee bread pudding especially when its from Delifrance. :)

Leos have little trouble expressing what their heart feels.

very very true indeed. and probably; that is why, i am still stuck with these emotions.

the acoustic version is sooo deep :)



better thn liam's version in my opinion. very moving indeed :)



both versions are beautiful :)



#Random fact 24#; I do not like the flavored 100 plus isotonic drink. i like the original one better :)

Do u deserve to know the truth?

God, i need ur grace.

this time, triple the strength.



#Random fact 23;# I take zinc multivitamin everyday.

Two Hundred.

I am proud to say that i've finished reading Yasmin Khadra's The Attack. a very2 moving story indeed. :) i'm planning to buy the book and also search for the original version, which is in french. beautiful. like The Kite Runner :)

and i am also proud to say that this is my 200th post. :)

I intended to make it a very2 special post. like you know, dedicate it to someone or write something through a different perspective.

hell, i've waited for this moment. the moment to publish my supposedly special 200th post.

but at this very moment, i care less bout making my 200th post special. all i wanna do is write and spill my emotions here.

so where do i start?

wait. fyi, i lost my pilot shaker pencil and i am super upset about this matter. i know that i can easily buy a new one but i refuse to do so. i'm tired of losing pencils over and over again. and i only use mechanical pencils which are shakers. dont ask me why. i dont know either. in the mean time, i am using my faber castell pencil kayu. -_-
sounds pathetic kann? idc. i'll continue using pencil kayu till idk when. (merajuk dengan pilot.lol)

alright, lets proceed;

7th December 2009 which is tomorrow; my mid semester examination will start. -Basic Legal Method.

8th December 2009; Intro To Islamic Law.

9th December 2009; Law and Society.

11th-20th December 09- Mid Semester Holidays.

12th-16th December 09- BRATs Year End Trip, Kenong, Pahang.

22nd December 09- General (p) of Law.

26th December 09- Understanding Islam

27th December 09- Arabic.

referring to the bold fonts up there. around two weeks ago, i received a text msg from Sue of THE STAR; BRATs. (click post title for more details)

i was chosen to join the others to participate in the year-end trip.

i was excited, indeed.

the fact that the trip will be held in between my examination period didnt really bother me much. plus, its gonna be held during my semester break. no interruption to the class schedule.

it took me awhile to finally decide. to go or not go.

i am a very indecisive person. true enough.

i asked other ppl's opinion. everyone said, "GO". but i was still unsure.

and then, when i had finally decided to go;

realization hit me today.

-->we had this stupid leadership training this weekend. bodoh betul wasting time dahlaaa orang nak exam -_- inconsiderate. in between the stupid session, i followed my parents to klia this morning, to fetch up my big bro who's now back for his summer holidays. welcome home, abang :)

my father brought the BRATs letter with him for me to fill in the details. he was telling me bout how bad the weather is in pahang. after all, its musim tengkujuh kann? its raining heavily there. i caught a glimpse of the newspaper that my father was reading while we had breakfast. its clearly written there, pahang, banjir; bla2. dangerous, bla2, bla2. bla2..................................... trg.... bla2.... xde org kt rumah... bla2...

after much thought;

maybe i shouldnt go. shitte. i feel like crying while typing this down.

i so wanna go, i so wanna go, i so wanna go.

its a much awaited camping trip to Kenong.

theres jungle trekking, night walking, canoeing, grrrr. grrrr. waterfalls, grrrr. grrrr. so much funnn :( the nature, the cave, the forest. grrrr. grrr. rafflesia. grrr. grrr. camping. %$^&*()__*&^%$%^&**()_*(&^&%^&*()_

i am fully aware of the fact that if i go to this camp; i will be super tired and the fact that i have 3 more exam papers left doesnt really help much.

i so wanna go, yes, i am willing to sacrifice my holidays and study time.

Determined to go. i thought nothing can stop me from going.

and then,

and then,

i realised something.

its not that everything that i want, i'll get it.

i have to learn to make some sacrifices kann?

x bolehh lahh nak semua.

i wanna go, but the troubles that awaits me arent really welcoming. the consequences.

dear ALLAH,
forgive me when i'm whine. forgive me when i forget. all i need is some strength to face my days. i wanna be strong for myself. i dont wanna breakdown and cry. right now, even the simplest thing can make my mind wonder to the past. and i dont want that. i wanna move on. i wanna go forward. i wanna be strong like the besi :). i wanna have a still heart. i want to be in complete controle of my life. i want to make the right choices in life. aid me, aid me thru this.

arent you afraid of growing up? you'll have to come to the unavoidable point in life where you have to start making your own choices, decisions. you just have to stop being clingy and dependant. and what if the decision that you made is wrong? will u end up crying ur eyeballs out? will you? what happens next? idk. i really dont know. guess this is what life's all about.

they say that life is like a rollercoater; sometimes ure up and sometimes ure down. but i say; you can always hold on. and hold on tight. :)

and i tell myself, Allah will always listen to my prayes. and yours 2 :)

i think i am ready enough to start making my own choices in life. i think. no, i wish. i probably am not mature enough but hell, at least i'm trying.

shitte. sacrifices; are they worth it?

i hope this one is.

#random fact 22;# I loveee rollerblading :)

doakan. my exam starts tomorrow. (and yet m still blogging. hehe) ;p

Some things are better left unsaid.

I am at Old Town White Coffee @ LCCT with ayue.

ayue is still eating. hehe.

last night was superrr funn with elley, sarr and nikky. :D .funnayhhhhh. you guys are de beste. :D precious, precious, awesome buddies :) and i'm still smiling while typing this down :) lvv ya guys. :D

flight back to kl (freaking Nilai) was this morning, 8.30am.

had to wake up early. blerghhhh.

i want things to get back like how it used to be. i want you to be on the other end when i run. or better yet, run with me. i want you to be the one who will always listen and say all the right things. i want you to be the one who will tell me that everything will be just fine, alright

i'm sorry.

hey kawan; lets start over.

#random fact 21#; this is my 199th post and i feel just fine. :)

Originality, if u know what that means.

i freaking hate others who copy wtv i do.

don't u just hate it?

lepas tu konon like its urs, and u think ure cool and what not. padahal i'm way cooler lahhh kan (eceyh, perasan much)

semakin lame semakin annoying.

get a grip la weyhh.

GET A GRIP. grrrrrrrrrrrrr.

semakin hari semakin teruk and memalukan.

your pride? flushed down the toilet for some stupid random person. shitte.

stop bullshitting and get ur feet back to the ground.

the fairytale that u've created is just so effing stupid weyh.

u live ur life, while i watch u crumble. :)

lets laugh about this is 3 years time.

#random fact 20;# I dont drink milk except for chocolate flavoured ones.

Aidil Adha

Selamat Hari Rayea Aidil Adha. :)

wait, macam nama orang. hello aidil :) hello adha :)okay, shaddap already.

anyway, as u guys know (ceyh, u guys. macam ade org baca je blog neyh)., i am now in kuala terengganu. :)

2 cows dah korban at tok's place this morning.

ayue's house pn harini.

another 2 will be @ the new house on sunday but i wont be around i guess. dah balik freaking nilai.

went to the beach (bitch. THE BEACH.lol) early in the morning with naaa and reez yesterday. the view was astounding, as usual :) at ease; as usual :)

had a long conversation with nikky last night.

HIGHLIGHTS:

#'THEIR' names that rhymes. -_-

# penat kann suka orang. -_-

# "OMG KEY, his number is the same with u. WAIT. that's MY NUMBER" HAHAHAHAHAHAH
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAH. i mean, HAHAHAHAHAH, HAHAHAHHA, ROFL.

# LEO(s) rawrrrrrrrrrrr. RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. bapak laaa superstitious.

# suicidal and depression. LOL.LOL.

# LIFE GOES ON. eceyhhh. LOL.

# I lvvv yaaa nikky hanies :) i lvvv ya, ad infinitum :)

had Mcd; prosperity today with couz, adnin and darwish. happy :)

makan banyak today. kenyang. enough said.

waney's ym cam gila rosak plus xleh guna meebo and email die pn gile. i miss youuu weyhhh. aza tertinggal charger @ nilai. HAHAHA.

itu sahaja for today. :)

again, Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha.

to anyone by the name Aidil and Adha; you guys are like super famous, no? heeee.

#random fact 19#; I AM NOT A FAN OF SOMETHNG THAT EVERYONE ELSE IS A FAN OFFFFFFFFFFFFF. FOR EXAMPLE; I AM NOT A FAN OF TWILIGHT. euw ROBERT euw EDWARD. but i gotta admit that i do have a slight crush on Jacob. TAYLORR!!!! :)

hell yeah :)

kak orianthi, (ceyh, kak. xle blaa.heee) guitar skills anda memang awesome gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. rock on :)



kudos to the cousin :) loveeee ya :) GOOD LUCK SPM!!!!

#random fact 18#; 0.7 or 0.5? i prefer the 0.7 pencil lead :)

Don't look back in anger.

i'm on my own @ klia now. waiting for my delayed flight back to TRG. seriously, i am superrrr excited to go back. its been awhile and i miss kuala terengganu :) rayea haji there. wohooo. flight back to freaking nilai will be on sunday morning with ayue. shortt hols.kedekut betul. bummer.

i TERbeli (note TER) a drink that cost rm10.90. wth. i bought it w/o looking at the price. kalau starbucks ke ape x kesah laaa. ni some typical juice. i was about to pay, skali 20 bucks (including a bluberry croissant ). wth. 20 bucks. naseb baek ade duit. dahla i'm like sooo miskin now.

laptop kena bluberry. i end up throwing it in the dustbin (blueberry, no laptop.duhh). sticky. euw. and now i'm hungrayhhh again. haish. i want cheezzy wedges but m too lazy to beratur. grrr. lapar.

andd laptop xde batt. had to search for a plug and found one but kena duduk atas lantai. macam pengemis pown ade. haha. hobo much. lol.

anyway, i have been thinking a lot lately.

about my past. (ceyh, i sound so old and lame)

how i always do things (many things) to let time pass me by.

i just want the time pass me by, quick, fast.

quick, fast.

quick, fast,

quick, fast.

quick, fast.

quick, fast.

quick, fast.

quick and fast. no, i don't wanna live in the past anymore. no, i don't wanna live in the future.

all i want is just to live in the present.

to make use of every single moment. every second counts kannn?

i dont want any mayday, i dont want any stocking nike, i dont want any Z.O.G.

all i want to do is just to let time past me by. quick; fast.

do you know that it hurts? do you know that it really hurts? do you know that sometimes i cry myself to sleep?
do you know? do you know THAT FEELING? macam kena stab dengan dagger. urgh. sometimes i feel like i cant take it anymore.

i sound so suicidal. HAHA. i rarely think about the past nowadays but when i'm left alone with nothing to do, it'll encounter me. and then i will get so scared and insecure. and then the what if(s) will come and haunt me.

no worries. i am not typing this down while crying my eyeballs out and listening to some stupid emo song. LOL.

i am just fine now. just fine :)

i just wanna get over this bodoh phase, fast.

i tell my self not to believe in that four letter lie.

and

i am perfectly alright. :)

#random fact 17#; my kampung is in Kuala Terengganu and i so loveeeeeee it :)

This is how i feel, now.

i tell myself that illusions would never change into something real. maybe i should stop dreaming and just live this very moment to the fullest. yes. good things comes to those who wait kan? dont rush it. theres nothing to rush about.

people lie, all the time. you lie. i lie. we lie.


the truth is always far from wht u expect. from what i expect, from what we expect.


nevertheless, i am currently happy with my life. blessed with awesomely cool buddies. :) to RY.AYUE.AZA.BREE.ELLY; thx for the superb day yesterday.morning walk (fr more pics, fb) kalau rajen, later i'll upload.


#Random Fact 16#; I like the chewy guava candy. :) i have lots of em. want some?

yes, I like stormy weather :)

because it gets so dark and cold. and its perfect to sleep at tht time :)

jst now i received a call from jux. she was in nilai with her mom and lil bro. they had lunch at teabox. aza and i went there. heeee. lame x jumpe. rinduuuu. euro trip tonight. have funnn :)

aza is having her class now. ayue just got back from class. bree elly and ry dahhh offfffffffff to college.i am too lazy to tag along. lazy. enough said. no further explanations needed.

the cuaca in nilai is crazily unpredictable. one second its all sunny, and then for all u know, its raining heavily. haish. isolated nilai.

spm is goin on now. hang on there cousins; REEZ and MUNIR. dear starters; KAYL, PIKA,AM,. u guys wld do great :) good luck; ANATI,NADATTE,NGEK,THAQEB :)

minnn just got his upsr results. 4A's 1B. surprisingly, his B wasnt bahasa melayu (he cried after the bm paper, claiming that it was super hard.) but it was science. strange enough because science was his favorite subject and his grades for science had never fallen below A. careless mistakes probably. idk. he was sad but wt else cn be done kann? nevermind syed minnnn :) u did ure best already :) still, congratulations. ure one awesome lil bro :)

abang is coming back this december. summer break. excited.heee :)

ayue faiz and i went to klia yesterday (i skipped arabic class for this one. berkorban.eceyhh) to send our uncle. haji.

and blerghhhhhhh

11 y/o cousin guna bag LV. haish. jutawan. ayue and me smiled jer. HAHA.

muaz is gonna be circumcised this weekend. eh, ke esok kott? idk. while i'm stuck in freaking nilai, the whole family is back in trg. bummer. bummer.

ohh flight back to ktrg: wednesday night. :)

hurmm. wt else? banyak laaa stuffs happnd bt i chose not to think about it. you know, some things are bttr left unspoken kann? cliche much. yeah. or more like, ignorant. yes ignorant.

problems would arose when u always give a shitte. so care less, less problems would come ur way. my bad bad theory. haha.

to Z.O.G and ur weird friend perasan much; wt kind of stupid game ure playing ni wey. U NEVER CROSSD MY MIND. NOT YESTERDAY,NOT NOW, NEVER LA WEYH. ramai other people yg wayy better. yang tu, jalan nak kepit2. same cam budak masjid. haishh. ingat handsome laaaa tu. macam rempit tepi jalan. GELI A WEY.

andddd new flame; almost a week x nampak. then i saw u today. i hope we'll be okay, alright :) :) :)

SILA LIHAT GAMBAR DI BAWAH



OMG. so cool and awesome. MCLAREN is now the strongest team in terms of the drivers. at first i was flabbergasted to hear the news bout Button moving to Mclaren. macam x bersyukur pulak duduk dengan brawn gp. HAHA. but yeah, Hamilton and Button really made Mclaren a more awesome team or should i say, A HANDSOME TEAM. lol. kesian heikki. but yeah, just like life, not evrythg that we want; we'll get it. suck it up and live with it. it'll be just fine.

I SO CANT WAIT FOR FORMULA 1 2010. super hottt races coming along :)

okay, lazy mode detected. haha. later people.

#Random fact# 15; i wear my watch on my right wrist. :)

Do I Look Like I Give A Damn?

I'll be just fine, i swear.
I'm just gonna be on repair.


:)

#Random Fact #14#; My Sisters Keeper and The Pact are my favorite books by Jodi Picoult :)

home.rumah.

heyyy hooo people :)

m at home now.
went to jusco just now to buy the wtv book for MUET but couldnt find it. booyahhh mph. haish. i really want the wtv book for MUET. thou i have no idea when MUET is, i just wanna have the exercise or text or wtv u call it book. i feel dumb not learning english so i just wanna prepare myself for MUET which idk when it is but yes i am fully aware of the fact that wthr i like or not, i just have to sit for it. i hope i'll pass with flying colors. blerghhhh. flying. why not use 'with swimming or skipping colors' huhh? would be more funn. imagine, skipping colors. lol. craps.

will be back in freaking nilai early in the morning tomorrow. back to the same old boring routine.

endless lectures. endless presentation. endless assignments.

kill.kill.shoot.shoot.die.die.

naaah. i am perfectly alright. i have a stable life :) ceyhh. stable.

i'll be busier next week and the following week. studying for the coming exam after rayea haji. no wait, its RIGHT after.

hurmmm. what else?

hurmmmmmmmmmmmmm. ohh yeah; happy advanced birthday (15/11/09) to you. :) i hope u'll get a square birthday cake. if u get my joke lahh. haha. :) you're 18 now. i hope u'll be more mature and stop being a jackass. ure de beste. (:

#Random Fact 13#; My favourite character in Detective Conan is Kaitou Kid :) (i used to kumpul the buku. from episode 1. but sekarang dah x follow.haha)

a quick one.

first offfffffffffffff; congrats to elena azman :) i lv yaaaaaaaaaaaa :)

theres no arabic class for today. wohooo. :)

ayue, bree, elly, ry and aza pergi class.

i'm finally going back home today after weeks of staying in freaking nilai.

7th Nov; i joined the Sports and Martial Arts Carnival (SMAC) in pj. represented law for basketball alongside aza. ;) pictures are on fb. again, m too lazy to upload it twice.

andddddddd i am toooooooo lazy to spill in every single detail. but yeah, it was fun to be on court again after a loooooooong time not playing. like seriously; it was fun dengan aza :)

and ohh, my jersey number was 10. the same number that i had when i played basketball for my house back in school :) apparently i played for yellow house and my number was the same as waney who played for blue and chattt who played for green. speaking bout coincident. heee. ade jodoh.lol. i soo miss u guys.

we got third place. for a team without a coach and a team manager; awesome kan? haha.

the engine students in pj were hot. for real. super hot. makes me wanna change course. haish. temptations. nvrmind we'll meet in gombak :) HAHAH.

met shudeq in pj. aza and i slept in her room. had tonnes of funnn :)
the dominos eating session was hella awesome :)
we lv you deqqq!!! :)

been a lil busy with assignments; presentations.

wanna write every single dirt but seriously; i aint got noooooo timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. after writing this post; i'll probably go and do some serious reading. probably general (p) of law or basic legal method or maybe law and society. alright.

haha.no, i'm just joking.

obvsly i'm going back to sleep. lol.

goodbye world :)

#Random Fact 12#; I have four of my ex-schoolmates in freaking uia Nilai. (aza, bree, elly and ry) and i have 2 cousins here. a female (ayue) and a male. and yes; i am proud to say that we're ALL in the same dorm. (except for aza who is in the process of switching dorms)

p/s; guys who can play basketball will so catch my eyes. can you? :)

Life is easier;

when u learn to expect the lowest out of circumstances and people. trust me.

and people means everyone revolving around you.

and thats how i learn.

i am completely aware of what i'm doing. completely. read it again, COMPLETELY.

stop judging if you dont know. hell, u dont know. serious shitte, you dont know.

so stop bloody judging and making your own conclusion to your own version of full of shitte and assumptions and hindering facts of your own made up story of my life.

its my life you're probing into.

so stop judging.

geeeeeeeeeeeeeez. get a life.

*Random Fact #11#; I dont eat SNICKERS. I only eat MARS :)

p/s; its really cold early in the morning.

someone,please lend me a gun, senapang.

last night i watched the final race for this season, Abu Dhabi. A spectacular new track. minus the fact that Lewis Hamilton was unable to show his true pace on the track due to brake problems (he was already in 2nd place); the race was still awesome.

the sunset was super astounding. Abu Dhabi is sooo in my f1 tracks list :)

vettel was super fast followed by webber and the newly crowned world champion, J.Button (his gf is hot). haha.

lets get to my story now. so while i was watching, a person yang i do not know by face or name came to me and said; "nak tengok ni ke dik?" i was like, "yeah" and continued watching, ignoring her. (i know she was pissed.haha)

while watching, i was fully aware of the number of crowd that was growing behind my seat. probably some idiots,waiting to watch some stupid malay dramas. i was like, wth. and continued watching.

bree and aza accompanied me but only for an hour. and when ry called to come down and pick up my mineral water, i asked bree to sit on my seat. just in case some idiots would come and switch the channel to watch some stupid malay dramas.

then i continued watching; thrilled by the super hott race. and it was the time when there were 10 more laps left. suddenly a stupid, stupid, stupid person came upfront, trying to switch the channel. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

*SPFOS stands for-->Stupid Person, Full Of Shitte.i made that up.lol.*

me: eyyy, excuse me? orang tengah tengok ni. dont bloody switch the channel please.
SPFOS: tapi kiteorg nak tengok channel lain.
me: so? i'm watching the race now. jangan tukar lah.
SPFOS: tapi kiteorg ramai. yg nak tengok f1 sorang je kan?
me: but hello, i was here first. it dont matter kalau korang ramai pown. first come first serve la .
SPFOS: please laaa adik. (attempting to press the ok button for some stupid channel)
me: nope. saye nak tengok ni. (ceyh, saye. xley blaa.LOL.) tunggu la. race dah nak habis.
SPFOS: pukul berapa habis?
me: 11.
SPFOS: tapi yang ktorg nak tengok tu start pukul 10.30.
me : i wanted to say; "wtf.seriously, stop bugging me and just shut up" but instead i said nothing at all and continued watching.

and then the race ended. i wanted to watch the part where the winners would go on stage and receive their trophies because obvsly thats the best part of the race but those stupid people wont let me and seriously i'm too lazy to argue some more with a bunch of idiots who wouldnt understand the value of watching the f1 race till the very last bit.

END OF MY LEGACY. haishhhhhhhhhhhh. seriously, i know that i was being selfish but i dont care. seriously, i'd rather be selfish thn not watching the final race. FINAL RACE i repeat.

i waited a few more minutes there to just get a look at what those idiots were so eager to watch. tahu x ape?

MY STARZ LG.

i was like, WTH? WTH? WTH? u guys are seriously wasting ur time.

i went bck to my dorm.

i slept in anger. grrrr.

i woke up late for subuh.

and when i think back bout last night, i find myself laughing for no specific reason. call me insane, probably i am.

insanely in lv with the race, yes i am :)

#Random Fact 10#; My ipod was signed by Lewis Hamilton himself @ sepang. laser. :)

updates.

I am taking 4 major law subjects for this semester.

and 2 compulsory minor subjects. and that; for surely includes arabic which i have like every single day for this semester. i am so so lucky. blerghhh. -_-

-my money (duit kertas plus coins) are all over the place in my bag but that does not indicate that i have a hell lot of money. i only have 50 bloody bucks left till this friday. buku law pown dah berapa ringgit kannnn. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr. and and i am 2 lazy 2 beratur at the atm machine. i should be a beggar lah pulak. haishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. kepada encik syed azman, saye nak duit!!! :)

-unfortunately for me; there are 2 particular lecturers that i don't really favor. its not that i hate them or sth, its just that i'm not really keen to learn the supposedly fun subjects with them. one is a very2 talkative lecturer who craps a lot, like a hell lot. super sleepy and boring weyhh. and the other one is SUPER ANNOYING I TELL YOU. not to forget, SUPER RUDE. curse you. seriously, curse you weyy. rude gile. truthfully, ure jokes arent funny. SUPER LAME and full of sinister and sarcasm. you're just one selfish person who feels superior to others when u make such super duper stupid remarks. again, curse you. probably its the insecurity that ure hiding under your shirt. i hope u freaking get hit by a lorry or vanish into the thin air. haisshh.

-after a loooooooooooooong looooooooooooooooooong time not being on the court/ not playing in a game, i finally decided to play bb again. will spill the details later. defntly not in this post. heeee.

- The final f1 race for this season; Abu Dhabi. Hamilton was 1st for the qualifying followed by Vetter, Webber, Barrichello and Button. Go boyfriend!!! lol. Cant wait to watch the race tonight. its gonna be hotttttttttttttttt. :)

i'm done here, or should i say, i am freaking tired and i just wanna stop typing. fullstop.

#Random Fact 9;# I havent use my biasiswa (or wtv they call the money) for the last semester. and, we will get more moneyhhhhh for this new semester. wait. tipu. ade lah guner rm200 kottt. emergency. hahaha.